Posts Tagged ‘Blog’

Yes – I know, I know (hanging head low) I have been a very bad blogger lately. Not a single line has been written. I even neglected to check my stats (in fear that they have turned abysmal which would not have been surprising at all). In fact I have hardly turned on switched on my laptop for days (not turned on… it is good but not THAT good). My only online world (apart from work which is a whole other playing field) has consisted of FB on my phone.

Yes I know it is possible to blog with a smartphone… I even have the app! BUT… no, it is just a bit too much hassle. So what’s up with this absence you may ask; have I met someone, have I been on some exotic holiday, have I forgotten to leave work and slept under my desk? Hmm not quite. I’ve been busy in work yes. Apart from meeting up with my friends… I have a zero romantic social life. Unless I win the lotto the most exotic holiday is my balcony at the moment, which leads me to something that most definitely has kept me away from the laptop… the sun shone down on Ireland!! We went from 11 degrees and rain to 22 degrees and UNBROKEN sunshine (it actually said that in the weather report!) in two days!! I have never (read:NEVER) read that in an Irish weather report in the 12 years I have lived here. Just so that you understand the phenomenal event that it has been. I have not lost the plot quite yet. However, yes I have been that excited about this.

Another reason you see to why I have not been blogging is that I was feeling extremely down. I got sick of only writing about feeling crap and in the end I just did not have anything to say anymore. I mean, how many times can you say that you feel down. Yes there are/were things that are not great and that contributed to me feeling the way I felt but normally I can get myself out of the funk after a while. This time I didn’t and then… the sun came out. All the sudden life felt easier and I was relaxing in my sunchair on my balcony (after a major scrub the decking looked nice again). I was walking down the beach in the sun with friends soaking up the happy atmosphere and equal parts sunshine. I realized I (amongst other things) was in severe need of vitamin D. So I made sure to spend as much time outside as possible. Didn’t burn myself either apart from a spot om my back where I could not reach when applying sun lotion (wonder if cats can be taught to apply sun lotion…). What a difference a bit of sun makes.

Today it is actually a bit cloudy but still 20 degrees and they say the weekend is supposed to be nice. Think a hike is on the cards at the weekend. In either case, I feel much happier. There are still things I need to look into and things are not all rosy and great but that subject is for another time.

So all I wanted to say really is that I am still here. I have not given up on blogging. It may have become somewhat sporadic but bear with me.

Hope the sun is shining on you wherever you may be!

Summer in Dublin. Dollymount Beach.

Monkeys Blogging

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I sit here looking at my draft posts – post filled with pain, with longing, with sadness, with love, with thoughts immensely private. Pieces of writing that I’ll never publish. Some are old, some are new. I read them and I’m rocked back. They scare me with their intensity. Where did they come from?

I started writing this blog a little over a year ago now. The whole blogging… oh whom am I kidding… the whole writing thing made me VERY nervous. I’ve never felt that I’m a good writer. God knows my essays in school sucked! So writing in such a public fashion was very daunting. It has been an interesting journey.

With no formal writing experience and with no idea on what to actually write, I just started to write. For better or worse. There has been plenty of times when I cringed over what I wrote. Other times I have not been able to stop writing. Then there has been times when the dry-spells have been very real and no matter what I tried, nothing would come forth.

Looking back, there are some posts that I find horrid and then some that I am proud off. Then there are those pieces… This whole blogging business seems to have awoken something in me that I never knew existed. Strings of words that speak of my innermost feelings. Feelings that I cannot vocalize but that only come out in writing. Maybe one day I will be brave enough to post them.

I just write whatever pops up in my head. I do edit some but mainly, what I write is what I think about in that moment.  Which explains the amount of depressing posts about my messy life lately. Sorry about that… bear with me, I promise I will get back to somewhat funny or thought-worthy posts again as soon as I can.

I am still amazed that people read my shit AND that some even like it enough to continue reading or even comment on it. I have met some amazing people via this blog in the last year and THAT is almost the best thing about it. My life would be a poorer life without you.

So here’s to another year of writing (and feverent praying that my muse will stop watching soppy movies and actually come up with some good ideas to dazzle us all with…).

Most of all, here’s to all of you who read my thoughts. Thank you.

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I was having a prolonged breakfast in work today with one of my colleagues (a truly fab person!) today and for some reason we briefly talked about blog post topics, probably cos she is one of the few that read my blog… thank you, thank you!! Anyhow, she suggested that I blog about the people I see everyday, i.e. my colleagues, in a very anonymous fashion obviously. I am still thinking about as I am not sure if my observations will be appreciated or not. Not that I have anything bad to say about anyone really but there is always some who would feel a bit slighted. I am pretty good at putting my foot in it and with my luck I would manage to do it to someone who for some obscure reason would read my post out of the blue. I have to mull the idea over a bit more.

Then when I got home I was reading some blogs that I follow, namely “Alone… with cats” and “Cat fur to make kitten britches” and they both had posts about family members. Great posts at that, highly recommended funny reads! It got me thinking about post topics and the fact that I have a quite eccentric family. There is probably a multitude of posts that could be written about my family and experiences from growing up in a loud, passionate German family in a small religious town in quiet part of Sweden. Being my family they at least know all of my quirks and know that when I come out with a particular odd sentence that it is totally by accident. They are all loud, shameless, mad and funny people. Though when I was growing up I was convinced that my parents were the most embarrassing parents in the world and that I had been mixed up at the maternity hospital as a baby. I love them all and wish I could see them more often but such is life. So there might be a few posts about them in the pipeline. You have been warned.

The tattoo that I have been thinking of getting will most likely be done soon. I have been in touch with a tattoo studio with my ideas and might pop in there this weekend, if I can. The artist, whose studio it is, is very good but he is unfortunately booked up until hell freezes over (slight exaggeration here) but he has 3 other artists that he has full confidence in…or so he says. Am a bit nervous about getting this tattoo which really is silly as I already have two small ones but it is probably because this one is more important to me and because I have actually put some thought into the design. I just want to makes sure it turns out well and not looking like some horrid cliché. There will be pics posted here, once I have finalized the design and it is actually inked in.

Just finished a lovely soup and salad for dinner which means I now have to clean both the laptop screen and wash my jumper… this tends to happen when a cherry tomato falls like a V-2 bomb back onto the plate making a splash landing in the dressing. Time for some cleaning.

 

Blogging Readiness

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Is it possible to become obsessed with blogging? There is no end to it. I am constantly either checking my blog stats, reading other blogs or thinking about new stuff to blab about. New comments make my day each time. I can’t seem to stop thinking about different things to write about, even though plenty gets discarded because they turn out more horrid than usual. Other times I actually have to tell myself that I just can’t post several times a day either…there has to some sort of limit in the end of the day.

If one was to analyze this phenomenon then there are most likely a good few not so flattering conclusions to be drawn from this. Such as narcissistic self-inflation or some kind of ego boost need or god knows what. It has been a while since I studied such subjects hence I cannot even remember what the “afflictions” are called again. Maybe that is for the best. Let’s just hope that no shrink will ever analyze this blog cos I might be in trouble then. >)

In the meantime I will just continue throwing out my strange ideas and thoughts into hyper-space. I am enjoying this and that is the main thing really, I guess.