Posts Tagged ‘Mood’

Cover of "Poltergeist (25th Anniversary E...

Cover of Poltergeist (25th Anniversary Edition)

I look outside and all I can see is a misty light coming from the streetlights. The fog is so thick you cannot see further than a few meters ahead. Every light has that soft spooky glow that reminds me of old scary movies (yuk!) or stories about witches flying unseen through the dark night (yay!).

I never have been a fan of scary movies, always avoided them as much as I can. I think it started with me watching Poltergeist when I was way too young. You know the story… friends brother gets the movie and lets the kids watch it…. I was terrified of that old geezer in the movie. Still am… I know…it’s sad but true.

I was however always fond of a good story and fairytales. I can read the scariest books, hear the most frightening stories and that doesn’t bother me at all. I find it fascinating and am glued to the tale every second. I loooove a good book with a good story, even a really scary one.

Just do not make me watch it in a movie. Not sure why… I think it is the sounds and the music. My mum went through a phase when she loved scary movies…which meant that whenever we rented a video (yes I am that old) a scary movie was picked as well. Of course I would watch it (aren’t I a sucker for punishment…) and by “watching” it I mean hovering behind a pillow while shoving my fingers into my ears ever so often.

I am not allowed to sit next to anyone when watching something scary either… as I have a tendency to jump at every sound and grab hold of the person next to me… which is not all that appreciated. Very inconsiderate of them don’t you think?!

So I will just look out and think of some spellbinding fairytales. No scary movies for me anymore and you know what… that is totally fine with me.

Echinacea

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Well, I am back in Dublin again and it feels really good. This week away was not exactly what I needed at the moment. It was a bit stressful, hectic, intense and at times even an awkward work week. Meeting new people who were not overly thrilled to meet me, repeating the same message about the new process I represent and how it will work out well again and again and then collapsing on the hotel bed once my brain was stalled, was not how I would describe a great week. But then, it was necessary and I believe it was worth it as this will make the work relationship better in the future.

So here I am sitting right now tired but happy to be home. I do have a head cold as well which I picked up while I was away but considering the amount of Echinacea I put into me it will hopefully fade a way in a few days. I am looking forward to a calm weekend and a normal working week ahead. I will need it to recharge my batteries before it is time for a mad weekend away with the girls. Now that I look forward to! 🙂

For now it is time for some downtime. Some music in the background, a good book to read, a cat in my lap and a cup of tea next to me.

Have a nice weekend!

Being nice or not

Posted: October 2, 2010 in Rant
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Being nice is something that we are always told is important. It is being drilled into us since an early age and that is a good thing. The world would be a much happier place if everyone was nice to each other. However in reality the world is slightly different. I have always been a bit naïve and assumed the best in people. That has backfired a good few times. I still persist though, as I also believe that the world would be a much poorer place if we all would assume the worst. This doesn’t mean that I walk around on a little pink cloud thinking everyone is a saint.

So what brought on this post… Well, without going into details, I had a incident this week with person in work that really has riled me up. It started with a small disagreement on a minor issue and ended up with a blown out of proportion situation that is just ridiculous. When the other party started acting like a wronged, spoiled child throwing uncalled accusations around, it really pissed me off. I have no problem with people disagreeing with me but throwing a tantrum and then spending days ignoring me and bad mouthing me is not something I accept. I am playing this by ears now, being all nice for now. There are times like these when I wish it would be socially acceptable to just let it rip.

Sometimes I really do not want to be nice. When there are plenty of things I’d like to do or say. The temptation has been there a few times fueled by anger and my temper but I rein in the motion most of the times. In the end of the day I am not 5 years old and have to act accordingly even if there are others out there who do not. Luckily this particular individual is the only person that is a bit of a challenge do deal with and everyone else is great to work with.

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I am sitting down having a cup of tea as I type this. I have no specific topic in mind in this particular moment. I just picked up the laptop and started typing away. There is no intention behind it and no red thread thought out. I can not tell you what I will blog about as this is something that will evolve as I type this post. All I know is that I woke up this morning and felt angry and frustrated and I had many topics, well rants really, in mind that I though I would store away until later when I would have some time to sit down and blog.

As it is now, I do not feel angry anymore nor do I want to rant about those things that were upsetting me. Maybe I will pick up those topics on another day and dissect them in a different post. Who knows.

Earlier today I went to the club/dojo to train. Sparring techniques was on the agenda. Initially I felt split about going today; on one hand I thought that it would be an excellent way to vent all that pent-up frustration in a controlled yet physically demanding exercise. Yet on the other hand I almost felt that I was in such a lousy mood that I should stay away from other humans. Either way I did go to the club. We went through a lot of striking techniques and how to apply these both in a traditional sense and in a “real life” situation. It was all from striking pads to pairing up two and two and try them out. It was demanding but good. There was a full on sparring session at the end but I could unfortunately not take part as I have the laser eye surgery next week (which I have mentioned in a previous post) so I wanted to be a bit careful as a black eye really would not be good right now.

I did make the right decision by going to the Bujinkan training today. I realize this as I am sitting here sipping my tea. I feel relaxed where I previously felt tense, I am smiling where I previously was scowling and I am no longer angry or feel the need to spew out frustrated rants all over the place. I rather have a cup of tea and just type away feeling good about myself, about the world around me and the fact that I can blog away to my hearts content even if no-one will read this.

So it seems like this post is about Bujinkan training, the release of tension, blogging and drinking tea. I just might have another cup now.

A good moment or five

Posted: September 2, 2010 in Life
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Sometimes it is easy to forget about all those little but immensely worthwhile moments that I come across on a daily basis. They are not always very obvious if I do not look for them. It is easy to get bogged down with everyday issues and whatnot that happens in our lives.

I could go on about the things that happened to me in work or at home today that I didn’t like or that annoyed or frustrated me  – and believe me I could probably stretch the list a bit, as could most. But… I will not. All that will achieve is making me miserable as I relive all that was wrong in my opinion. It will not solve anything nor will it make tomorrow easier.

What I want to express are the moments that made me smile today. The split seconds that are there to remind me that life is made up of moments and that it is I and I alone that decides which instances to focus on and take with me as memories of the day.

So today I will take with me:

  • The embarrassed laugh from early this morning as I realised that I was so deep in my own sleepy world that I actually missed the elevator doors opening and closing again in front of me as I waited for it.
  • The taste of the first coffee of the day as I sipped it together with a fresh croissant.
  • Having a laugh with my colleagues about something mundane.
  • Receiving a compliment for the perfume I am wearing.
  • Laughing out load at the antics of the DJ’s on the radio when I was driving home and continuing having a smile on my face listening to good music being played.

I will end today with a smile because I choose to take with me the good moments of the day.

Inspired by music

Posted: May 13, 2010 in Music
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I love listening to music. All kinds of music. There are not many music categories that I do not like or at least where I do not find at least one song that I really like. Music is important to me. Unfortunately I cannot sing or play any instruments. Trust me, I have tried and failed miserably each time. 🙂 I believe there is a song for each mood and not only can you choose songs depending on your mood but music can also alter your state of mind.

The right music at the right time can make all the difference in the world. It can make an unassuming night out turn into a “oh-my-god-what-a-fantastic-night-to-remember”! Sharing music with friends is fantastic and in those moments it doesn’t matter that you cannot sing (provided that the volume is high enough anyway… 🙂 ).

Music inspires my life. There have been plenty of times when I have been angry, sad, frustrated or plain old bored and then I put on some tunes and sit down, the music totally seeping into me and all the negative feelings disappear and I feel happy and relaxed. Music can make me want to work out, to read, to clean, to love, to write and to just close my eyes and listen. Music makes new and brings out old memories and it makes me realize that without music our lives would be all that much poorer. Let’s live a rich life with many memories and keep creating many more to come.